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Am alive. Take myself seriously. Face the demons in my mind everyday. Sometimes feel like the world has no limits. Hit the snooze button too many times in the morning. Like the sound of banjo music sometimes. Have made many mistakes in my life. Prefer espresso. Worry about my hair. Am lazy. Come up with some of my best stuff as I am saying it. Fly like paper; get high like planes. Don’t like to hear recordings of my own voice. Like to take the long way home. Sometimes must fight my inherited urge to show off. Drive an old car. Take too many napkins from the napkin dispenser and put the extra ones in my glove box. Like to catch up with friends over the phone. Like to write letters to them too. Have traveled to more places than many people I know. Want to travel more. Don’t like to give exact change because is feels weird not getting any money back. Over analyze things. Sometimes struggle to pick sides on an issue. Dance poorly; dance regularly. Still haven’t found what I’m looking for. Am cooking more. Am cooking better. Trying to find the energy. Am getting better at the whole will power thing. Am more comfortable in my own skin than I have ever been. Am passionate about the right things. Love my family as I love myself. Love all the faults too. Sometimes wonder how I got here. Am fascinated with all of the small events that took place to make accomplished people who they are. Hope. Rush in. Am trying to be more punctual. Will make many more mistakes. Follow most traffic laws when I’m in my car. Don’t really try to follow those same laws when I’m on my motorcycle. Think back with great fondness to Europe. Would launch a thousand ships in my heart for the right one. Like to take pictures of stuff. Don’t do it often enough. Am in control. Believe in god sometimes. Only believe in the good parts when I do. Wonder what it feels like to run a marathon. Will survive. Have contemplated suicide. Clean my house when I’m avoiding real work. Miss trick-or-treating. Wish I could play basketball. Like the feisty ones. Like sending stuff in the mail. Pretend to be interested sometimes. Eat way to slowly. Sometimes catch myself saying “and stuff” after every sentence. Am faithful. Am looking forward. Am still alive.